Wednesday, 4 July 2012

Searching for someone ...

Excuse me who are you ?? I look back at the past and ask the OLD ME ..... I try searching for those lost memories. A lot has changed over the course of time . It feels like i have already lived a lifetime and it's still 17 years of my life only. I still feel I am incomplete  need something to fill that hole in my heart. I feel like I am a new person now not knowing anything about the past. I have a lot of secrets as well like any normal person But am I still the same person or have I changed too ?? I keep on thinking....


When I look back at my past I remember a small kid who was just sitting in the corner of the class on the first day she soon learned to make friends , the next thing i know she is just hanging with guys maybe cause of the haircut ( i suppose :P)
She evolved slowly it took her some time to cope up with everyone. Trust me she loved her old school a lot she loved all of her friends a lot. though she was a quiet, little nerd but a feisty girl she managed to keep her friends close <3 This school had taught her many important things in her life which helped her most of the time.

The worst part was Leaving her first school and going to the next one ...... she wasn't happy at all but she had no choice at all but to go with the flow :( This was the worst decision ever made though everyone thought she was happy but I think deep inside she wasn't at all. going through all those old memories which could not be forgotten. Maybe there was something that could make her happy but nothing. Even though she had a fun time in her new school she still couldn't bear it anymore, she felt quite left out . She felt like an outsider as though she never belonged there or it was not her day ever. this is what she got for being a quiet girl right ??

She had to do something so that people know her more but what could she do . She tried everything possible. She changed herself completely just so that people would understand her she is the perfect example of what we can say a good girl gone bad ... well not completely but she is in the process of going bad all i can say. She used to be this bright student always scoring awesome marks but now she is nothing just someone who will never be know to anyone ..... why is her name in vain just cause of some other person she is an individual and she has the right to be who she is, Like her for who she is and not for someone who you want her to be .

it was once said that - " what you do unto others shall be done unto you "

This girl reminds me about someone who i used to know once long time ago